Changes...& loss

We went to the vet because Rascal had a stomach ache last Thursday.  X-Rays showed his little lungs full of cancer, looking like it started in the spline, causing all of his belly aches.  Since we knew we had a finite amount of time, we played hard.  He lasted exactly a week before his body gave up completely. 

The main reason for driving to Alaska, aside from replacement costs of our perfect vehicle, was for Rascal...he never had to fly and ride with the luggage.   Now we have to sit down to reevaluate our priorities, though we will have an excellent time on a road trip up.  We are still heading in that direction...but it's weird to think that there are other options.

Rascal has been my best buddy, my sidekick, my travel partner, my comfort when I'm sick, my entertainment, the biggest source of spending of my hard earned income...you get the idea.  He came home with me for my 20th birthday, I'll be 33 this summer. 

This was the most unexpected blow I've had to deal with in my adult life.  Every decision I've made has been based around him.  I've built my entire adult life around him.  I'm not sure how, but I know with time I'll be ok... This makes our fun in the sun time in Florida bitter sweet.

We'll be able to spread ashes in all his favorite spots on our travels...

I'll miss you buddy.
<3 Your Momma